If I Knew

If I Knew 

If I followed my footsteps and swallowed my pride

Would they lead me discreetly to the place where I died?

If I sat down and knew I had one step to go

Would I get to my feet maybe stick out a toe?

Knowing i'd die if I tripped and I fell

Would I take that one step... I can't tell!

If I knew of the time and the day and date

Would I put my clock back and pretend I was late?

If I knew that my heart would just stop like a brake

Would it even be worth trying to keep me awake?

Knowing i'll die when the timing was right

Would I care if my ending...  Was day or was night?

If angels did come and they knocked at my door

Would I tell them that I know what they came here for?

If I knew I could fool them by running away

Would they only return on the following day?

Maybe its time to just stick out that toe

Let my footsteps take me to wherever I go

And if for some reason I come off my track

I should still be on course when I put myself back