Sex Toy

You say I'm the one, when you're needing some fun

I'm always there to rely on

Push me away, when you don't wanna play

But then you've already cum 

Im just your sex toy

Your silicon boy

A little thing you can play with

Im just a sex toy

Bringing pleasure and joy

But you don't ever wanna give

You say I'm yours, when you're down on all fours 

No inhibitions when needed

But then you fall, like you've given your all

When I want more, you've conceded 

Im just your sex toy

Your silicon boy

A little thing you can play with

Im just a sex toy

Bringing pleasure and joy

But you don't ever wanna give

Late in the night, when I'm holding you tight

Your fingers grab my attention 

When things arise, well it's not a surprise 

I need divine intervention 

Im just your sex toy

Your silicon boy

A little thing you can play with

Im just a sex toy

Bringing pleasure and joy

But you don't ever wanna give

Drown

Sinking down...

I'm gonna drown

The current takes me

Under sea 

Breathing water...

Waves above me

Crashing down 

The current pulls me

Down, down, down, down, down, down, down 

Fish in frenzy...

Food is plenty 

As I drown 

Sinking down

Under water...

Under nothing 

Here in breakdown

Sinking, sinking 

Down, down, down, down, down, down, down 

Psycho

You think you, know me well

You think you, know me well

I'm not,the man you see 

The devil, hides in me 

You think you know, me well 

You think you, know me well 

And maybe, just as well 

You do not, know me well 

NO...

I DON'T THINK SO....

YOU DON'T KNOW...

PSYCHO!

You think you, see me here 

You think you, see me clear

The man you, think I am 

Is not a, friendly man

You think you see, me here

You think, you see me here

When really, you should fear 

The man who's, standing near

NO...

I DON'T THINK SO....

YOU DON'T KNOW...

PSYCHO!

The demon, screams in me 

This devil, you don't see 

A darkness, seeps through me

And hides, the real me 

The shadows, deep inside 

Are places, where I hide 

You do not, know me well!

You do not, know me well!

NO...

I DON'T THINK SO....

YOU DON'T KNOW...

PSYCHO!

Final Wave

I sighed at your departing 

Like this farewell was an end

The plane was on the runway 

That would take my long lost friend 

I turned as you were leaving 

Where you disappeared from view 

Was this the final wave goodbye?

The last I'd see of you?

Dear brother I have missed you

Over years and many miles 

And at our warm reunion

You bestowed a gift of smiles

Where in your arms I felt the love

As strong as your embrace

Together we were young once more 

No lines upon our face 

And now you're gone again 

I sense the years are turning cold

I realise from photographs 

That I looking old

But you remain a mystery 

The life you play as planned 

And many unknown friends of yours 

Now wait for you to land 

Curse Of Me

You...

Are the curse controlling me 

Bringing out the worst in me

Treating me with such disdain 

Time and time and time again

You...

Break me down without contempt 

Bleeding me till all is spent 

Bending to manipulate 

Dragging me through love and hate

I...

Know that I could walk away

Leave yet I still choose to stay

Captured in the spell of you 

So do what you will always do

You're... 

Hellbent on abusing me 

Contented just by using me

You prey upon my fragile mind

Your darkness so unkind 

May The Light Remain

Is it possible to separate darkness from light?

When the two are embedded as one

Darkness, the aggressor. Light,  just a flicker 

Both a formidable force 

Darkness, constantly nagging

Light, calming the storm

But both feeding from the other

What would this darkness do, if the light might fail?

Would it seep through the labyrinth of mind without contempt?

Would it turn this man to monster?

Might it show him the things of nightmares?

But the light!

Yes... That flicker of hope

It keeps him from slipping into oblivion 

Keeps him from... Falling apart

But should the pilot go out!

Would that darkness become cancer?

That spreads to the soul intent on doing good

Would it choke, expel and demand it's kingdom?

The body in which it dwells

Or will that light never dwindle?

Keeping the shadow assassin at bay

Only in death then, shall the two be separated 

But in life... May the light remain 

On Returning

He returned as promised

You threw no stones, but insults 

You did not bow before his feet, but wrapped them in chains

His name, now blasphemous 

Although in times of need, you called to him

Yet now you lock him away, insane

He returned as promised

To a different world

Where man in all his wisdom, had forgotten that promise 

A Thing To Fear

In my illness

You  must not cry

Or it will be so hard to die

At my end

Don't shed a tear

Or death shall be a thing to fear

Battle Of Spirit

And so, this battle is set to begin

I will do what i can, try my hardest to win

I'll not lower my sword, lay it down at my side

Not while I still have a spirit to guide

You're first to cause pain, with your savage attack

In my weakness, I'm trying my best to fight back

This war which you started, you waged against me

It will never be over, till my spirit is free

You fight from within, in the shadows and dark

Where you run through my blood, try to put out my spark

Like a coward you hurt, from the places you hide

But my spirit is strong, it has not up and died

This battle you started, has only begun

And although you may beat me, you'll never have won

My spirit will rise, when this war's at an end

Releasing the body, it couldn't defend

And while you rejoice in that body of mine

You shall rot in the ground, till the end of all time 

This battle you waged, may have only begun

But my spirit,  has already won 

Who Is My Friend? (A Gospel Song)

Who is my friend, whenever I need one?

When all those old friends, have turned and gone

Whenever I need you, my Lord you are near me

You give me reason, for carrying on

Who is my friend, when I feel lonely ?

When all those old friends, have vanished from view

Whenever I need you, I find you beside me

Throughout the hard times, I can count on you

Who is my friend, when I'm needing guidance?

Someone to show me, which way to go

No matter the distance, that lays before me

Your guiding  light, is always on show

Who is my friend, when I'm being tempted?

Who is the one, who turns me away?

Oh Lord I am thankful, for how you protect me

And I will sing, your praises all day

Who is my friend, whenever I need one?

When all those old friends, have turned and gone

Whenever I need you, my Lord you are near me

You give me strength, for carrying on

I've Got The Blues (For Y'Baby)

I got the blues for y'baby

You should have never fell for me

I got the blues for y'baby

You should have never fell for me

'Cause I'm not the kind to fall for

And I ain't the man you think I be 

I am always on the move...

I've got a roving eye...

And when I find another, then it's time to say goodbye

I've got the blues for y'baby

You should have never fell for me

It's not that I don't love you

But I ain't the man you think I be 

I'm a womanising man...

I don't mean to make you cry...

But now I've found another so it's time to say goodbye

I've got the blues for y'baby

You should have never fell for me

'Cause my bags are packed for leavin'

And it's time to set this hound dog free 

The Perfect Storm

As the clouds, gathered high

And the sun fell from sky

Was the day, the day I was born

And the wind, sang a sad song 

As the rain played along 

It was the sound, of the perfect storm 

And my life, seemed a blunder 

In the lightning and thunder 

I was something that god came to scorn

From my baby blue eyes

You could not hear my cries

Through the sound, of the perfect storm 

And when death comes to find me

When its darkness confines me

Only temper and tantrums shall mourn 

And the thunder will play

Put my life on display

To the sound, of the perfect storm 

Little Things

Nothing says I Love You like a sweet smile

And nothing warms a heart like tenderness 

These little gifts more valuable than money 

Are what I get when you and I caress 

That sparkle in your eye as warm as sunshine

Those arms that hold me tightly as can be

These little things to me are worth fortune 

They tell how much that you're in love with me 

And every kiss you give I keep forever

Every whisper till the end of time

These gifts you give to me without a reason 

They show me that you're absolutely mine

And when I hear your heartbeat play a soft song

More beautiful than any symphony 

These little things to me are worth a fortune 

They say how much that you're in love with me

Broken Hearted Train

The train is comin' baby

Rolling down the track

Once I get on board, there will be no more turning back

I'm here to leave you darlin'

You caused me too much pain

So I'm heading out to nowhere, when i get onboard this broken hearted train 

I hear the whistle blowing 

This train is right on time

It's here to take me far away, upon its lonesome line

I guess it's over baby

You won't see this man again

'Cause I'm heading out to nowhere, when I get onboard this broken hearted train 

Well that train is getting closer

It's just around the bend

The driver's slowing down, and now our time is at an end

I thought you'd try to stop me

But I waited here in vain

Now I'm heading out to nowhere, and I'm leaving on this broken hearted train 

Carry Me Through (A Gospel Song)

When I walk, through the valley

I will not shed a tear

I'll not worry, I'll have nothing to fear

And the life, that I lived

I'll have left it with pride

As I walk, with the Lord at my side

Yes the Lord, he will find me

He will heal and unbind me

And lead me to pastures of new

He shall guide and protect me 

With a smile He'll direct me

Give me strength, that will carry me through

No more mountains, to climb

No more burdens to bare 

I will know, that He heard every prayer

And the gates, they will open

And shall welcome me in

I will hold my head high, next to Him

And the life I have lived

'Till the day when I died

Where I walk with the Lord at my side

Yes the Lord, He will take me

And His love shall awake me

As He leads me to pastures of new

He shall guide and protect me 

With a soft voice direct me

Give me strength, that shall carry me through

Yes the Lord will be with me

In His greatness, forgive me

And His strength... It shall carry me through 

Sorry Heart

I've tried to change a lifetimes worth of sinning

I swear I tried the best a man could do

I've rolled so many dice but I ain't winning

And I gambled with the trust I found in you

But I remain the sinner, nothing changes

These dice I roll keep coming up the same

I've never read the book but turned the pages

And I guess my sorry heart holds all the blame 

I thought that I could somehow be forgiven 

That maybe all my wrongs would wash away 

As if this life of mine could be worth livin'

Yet I struggle through with every single day

And I remain the sinner, nothing changes

These dice I roll keep coming up the same

I've never read the book but turned the pages

And I guess my sorry heart holds all the blame

The road on which I've travelled, never ending

The mountains that I've climbed forever high

This sinner man by rights should be descending 

Not tempted by the angels in the sky 

So I remain the sinner, nothing changes

These dice I roll keep coming up the same

I never read the book but burned the pages

And I guess this sorry heart holds all the blame