A Kiss Farewell

"I'll not come to your room" she said

"I'll not come through your door

I'll not be made a fool again

Or treated like a whore"

Said I "But I do love you and if you should come to me

I'll hold you tightly in my arms and treat you tenderly"

"I'll not lay in your bed" said she

"I shall not comfort thee

No longer will I wake with you

Alone then you shall be"

Said I "But in the morning I shall whisper in your ear

And tell you all the lovely things that you have longed to hear"

"I'll not believe a word" she said 

"You'll use me as before

And come the morning with the sun 

Not want me anymore"

Said I "Tomorrow my ship sails and I may not return

Of all the women left behind it's you that I shall yearn"

"I'll say farewell to you" said she

And leave you with this kiss

So over seas and under stars 

You can then reminisce"

The Marriage

I asked her if she'd marry me

She said "I have nothing to lose

My body wears these tattered clothes

My feet walk in these broken shoes"

Said I "If you should say I do

I'll give my life, my very heart"

Said she "I'll love as best I can

At least till death tears us apart"

She married me and as my wife

She gave me children, two in all

Our daughter she was born one spring

Our son arrived in fall 

They were our joy and as they grew

I looked at her with some surprise

As she was gazing back at me

With teardrops in her eyes

I asked her "Have I pleased you?

Since the day you said you'd be my wife

You've never said you love me

'Though we've shared a lovely life"

Said she "I once had nothing

And no money ever came our way

But you gave what you promised

And I'll not regret that day"

When years had passed and death was near

We lay upon our wedding bed

She called me closer, whispered

And her final words were said

"I've loved you from our very start

It took this long to realise 

That when death does tear us apart

True love never dies"

I kissed her as she passed away

Her dying breath she'd left with me

I told her "Don't go too far now

I'll soon be there with thee"

Everyday from then and on

I felt her standing at my side

My true love never far away

Embraced me when I died

Pretty Little Kate

'Twas on the day her mother died that something hidden deep inside

Would alter everything that had been pretty little Kate

No more then was the blonde haired girl, who was her mothers world

She'd transformed into black to match the colour of her hate 

At night she'd take a razor blade and grip with fingers good and tight

And drag it over tender skin upon concealed arms

It wasn't pain she sort but rather anything that eased her thoughts

And blood was what it took to keep her tortured spirit calm

The first cut wasn't deep enough, she pressed a little harder 

But not enough to chip the bone or nerves to aggravate 

When the blood came pouring it released the inner demons 

That dwelled inside the complex world of pretty little Kate

The bloody cross upon her, reminded her of Sunday's 

She slashed again across the cross, so crossing out the cross

The razor blade fell to the floor, the blood began to flow some more

And she decided that enough was spilled to compensate her loss

Every night would be the same; she'd walk the dirty darker streets

Where men would come with money and to spread unknown disease 

She'd risk her life in alleyways with strangers looking down on her

Many times she'd thought to bite whist down upon her knees

On her journey home where she would walk the streets alone 

The hours of her painful day would always finish late

No one waited home for her and no one even cared 

As she was not the girl who once was known as pretty little Kate

Rescue Me

You can come into my dreams dear

You may come search my darker rooms 

You and me... We shall be

Forever in these vast catacombs 

Call my name

I hide no shame

Seek me out and please try to find

Rescue me

From this tragedy 

I'm lost and hopelessly blind

Bring with you a sword dear 

Protect me from the demons you may see

Don't run away... Or they'll surely stay 

For the rest of eternity 

Save your prayer 

Just find me there

Reach into the darkness and please take my hand 

Rescue me

From this agony 

I'm lost and taken all I can stand

Strike yourself a light dear

Hold it high so that I might see

Burn for me. Eternally 

Only you can set me free 

In the dark

You are the spark

The light that can lead me away

Rescue me

From this catastrophe 

Turn my nightmares into our day 

An Alternative Ending

She walked across the floor towards the freedom of the door 

With flashbacks of his face before she'd hit him on the head

Upon the floor the blood had dried. No sorrow, she'd not even cried

In fact she gave a smile when she had seen the bastard dead

She breathed in stale cigarettes; stubbed out in many ashtrays

Reminding her of breath that he had spat out in her face

Her chosen weapon by his side, his skull with which it did collide

Was now a simple iron that she put back in its place

She looked at him a moment and she tried hard to remember 

So long ago she'd loved this vile thing upon the floor

The man who lay there quite with no threats to steal her confidence 

Would not now hold her back as she walked freely out the door

An Ending

She moved just like a glazier set adrift on freezing water

She had much to tell and yet no words came dripping from her tongue 

It seemed her heart had melted, 'though until this very moment

She was not prepared to live a life where she did not belong 

I stood before her, smiled, as if her tears had never mattered 

Standing on the drops that soaked the linoleum floor 

I built a barricade of sorts, my body was a wall

In which it's structure stood between her and the freedom of the door

I took her by the wrist, I felt her tremble and resist

Before I held her hand upon my heart so she could feel my fear

I found it hard to breathe but found it harder to believe 

That we had lived so long within this atmosphere  

I longed for her to kiss me but her head just turned away

As though I wasn't even worthy anymore 

This barricade fell easily with just a single glance 

I moved aside and sadly watched her as she flowed out of the door

Hidden

If only I could show you all the things you cannot see
Like scars that I have hidden on the darker side of me
The cuts that tell a story of a life you do not know
Where only in a mirror is my tragedy on show
I wonder would you want me if you saw the real truth?
The razor tracks that I disguise that hold the very proof
From when I needed only pain to help me through a day
The hurt that dwells inside me never seems to go away
And if I let you closer would you understand my pain
Or would you break what others broke in pieces once again?
I wonder would you turn your back and simply disappear?
As that is what I've grown to dread and most of all I fear