Answered Prayer

I take your strength

You are stronger than me

I use your eyes

As they help me see

I feel your heart

Its beat ever true 

I love your soul

As this is you

I hold your hand

As it steadies the storm

I thank your mum

For from her you were born

I turn to you

As i know you'll be there

I call your name

Like an answered prayer

Face to Face

I'll cut off my face if i see him again

I don't like the way that he's wearing my head

His eyes filled with horrors i thought i'd expelled

It's years since the bastard was certified dead

He bullies my soul and refuses to leave

Plants seeds in my mind in the hope they will grow

He laughs in my face when I see him so clear

And longs for his damage to finally show 

Unstable

I find myself lost in a darkening place

I hide it by wearing this smile on my face

Everything gathers and piles up inside

It's been many a year since i've broke down and cried

Thoughts about life only lead me to death

This brown paper bag holds my very last breath

My heart will just stop... Or my thoughts will implode 

I haven't the strength for this punishing load

Memories of past keep returning in dreams

Picking away at the threads of my seams 

Soon i shall break like a crumbling wall

Unstable, and ready to fall

Jake

I still hear your bell in the dark of night

My friend in fur with the damaged sight

You came to me when i needed you

A friend so loyal and always true

Protecting me like a good friend should

As only a loved one surely could 

I miss you more than you'll ever know 

But i had to let you go

And over the years you are still with me

I mended your eyes so you might still see

The tears that i've shed from my losing you

My friend so loyal, my angel true 

Fire, Stars, Dylan and God

Sat by a fire in the cold of the night

Trying to keep warm in the glow of its light

Smoke from a peace pipe was passed to a friend 

Mixed with tobacco and some harsher blend 

Lost for a moment the flames of the fire..

Leapt t'wards the sky, jumping higher and higher

My caravan door let the music escape 

Dylan or God on an old cassette tape...

Howled in the night with an out of tune tongue 

Preaching to me in the words of the song

Stars up above were now brighter than bright

Designed was the map of mysterious night

Me, i just smiled, in this atmosphere 

Pleased their directions had guided me to here

Stagger Lee and the Law Man

Splinters of wood crashed down on the floor

Hinges no longer held the bar room door

Spurs on the boots of the man with a star

Clunked through the crowd in the dark smoky bar

He came to a table where the lone wolf sat

Rain dripped like blood from his black Stetson hat

The man sitting down did not raise his head

He just chewed on some meat while the sheriff said

"Well old boy, so we meet at last...

I've been on your trail since the winter past.

And here you are... Not a gun in sight

Have you lost your nerve?

Given up the fight!"

The lone wolf tilted his wanted head

He'd chewed on the words that the law man said

Their eyes now met for the shortest of time

Sending shivers electric down the sheriffs spine

"You know who i am? So you've heard of me!"

'You're the bad motherfucker called Stagger Lee"

'Well here i am... And there you are...

You with your badge... Your law mans star"

The sheriff was nervous so ordered a drink

Kept an eye on the man and he dare not blink

"I'm here to take you, alive... Or dead!

There's a fair high price on your ugly head"

Stag took a moment and calmly replied

"Well I'm shakin' and quakin' and tremblin' inside"

The sheriff then lifted the glass to his lips

His other hand close to the guns on his hips

While Stagger Lee cut with a knife and a fork

Then chewed once again on the beans and the pork

It's then that the sheriff was a little too slow

The table was pushed from the legs down below

The sheriff fell down with the stew and the bread

The knife became lodged in the older man's head

The last thing the law man would ever then see

Was the bad motherfucker they called Stagger Lee

Twisted Carnival

Welcome to the carnage of this sick and twisted carnival

Where clowns have chainsaws, knives galore as gimmicks in their arsenal 

So take your seat, but be prepared... You may not want to laugh

This isn't fake, they really sawed those pretty girls in half

Fun! Fun! Fun!

You'd better...

RUN! RUN! RUN!

The tigers now will be released, no chains shall hold them back

We'll sit and watch them pick their prey before their cruel attack 

Then if you are the chosen ones who find yourselves alive

Well here they come, the clowns are back... Lets see who can survive!

FUN! FUN! FUN!

There's nowhere to...

RUN! RUN! RUN!

Are you scared yet? Just a tiny, weeny, itsy bitsy, teeny FUCKING BIT?

You should be... 

As the clown who stands before you, is by far the most disturbed... 

And the one that you should really fear... ME!

The Angel Tree

I'll meet you under the angel tree

Just you, the branches, the leaves and me

We'll sleep under moon, and we'll spend the night

Embraced in its glowing of pale white light

The mist in the morning shall cover our shame

The stars and the moon we will put all the blame

As here, under the angel tree

Heaven saw what you did to me  

Breathe

You lay here at your ending 

And wonder how you got here so soon

You're frightened under starched white sheets

Surrounded by a curtain in this warm, sterile room

You look at me for comfort

I hold your thin skinned, clammy white hand 

And whisper in your ear so you might understand

"Soon... It is time for you to leave

So relax... and slowly breathe"

You're chest, like a damaged pump

Raises... Stops and starts

Your eyes tell a story... A tale of yesterday 

You are not here alone

Your son sits beside you in this moment

In his silence, he tries his best to pray

He squeezes your thin skinned, shaking hand

This is how all life was planned

"So now you are free to leave...

Just take your time... and try to breathe"

The mask you are wearing, frightens me

You now a stranger

The mother i had, has slipped away

The shell of a body remaining here... But your spirit has gone

And your death now put on blatant display

I remove your fingers... Rigid in mine

And i whisper to you for the very last time

"It is done. You are ready to leave...

No longer then...  Do you need to breathe"

Father and Teacher

The words of a father are given as strength

A guild for a lifetime, no matter the length 

His teachings, not perfect, but taught best he can

Turn girl into woman, and boy into man 

Those children he fathered in time will have grown

And soon they will cherish the youth of their own

Teaching those children, and passing it on

Long after their father and teacher has gone

The Idiot Truth

You're a bible of lies

You're a bucket of blues

You walk in the shadows

You wear dead mans shoes

You're a self centered martyr 

You're a room with no view

And the devil himself has control over you

You have no respect for the life that you live

You steal and you take yet you fail to give

You're the idiot truth who just can't understand

That the journey you take is the way that he planned   

You're a car crash that no one is able to mend

Your dealer your only reliable friend

He's the sore on your wound that will never then heal

While you ride on the tracks that you try to conceal  

She'll Never Know

There was so much that i didn't say

I should have told her yesterday

She shouldn't worry

But now I'm sorry

Now she's gone and i now know why

She couldn't stay to see me cry

And so she left me

She really left me!

Now i long for the winter rain

To hide these tears that fall again

I truly miss her

And long to kiss her

All those things that i didn't say

Make no sense now anyway

Yet i still keep them

Oh, how i weep them

Time means nothing anymore

I close the curtains, lock the door

Still i can feel her

I couldn't heal her!

I turn to her in this empty bed

Curse the words that i never said

I let her go...

And now she'll never know

Winter

Winter falls on barren trees

Silence stills the fallen leaves

Frosty air begins to sting

No songs from birds in which to sing

Wind grows cold and chills the bone

Soil as hard as ancient stone  

Gathered food now safely stored 

To feed until the earth has thawed

A Love Poem

I would climb any mountain

To witness your smile

Walk stoney old paths

Over many a mile

I would swim vastest oceans

If you would be there

I'd carry your burdens 

When too hard to bare

I would pick you a star

And i'd give it your name

I'd steal cupids darts

And at you i would aim

I would write you a poem

Let everyone see

So the whole world would know

Of your meaning to me

Every Broken Heart

Every broken heart

Has a fracture, that may never heal

Causing pain inside

And the hurt... That all abandoned feel

Like a mirror smashed

It's the fragments, now beyond repair

Knowing very well...

If you looked, you'd find the truth in there

All that you can do...

Is to find the strength to carry on

Once the bleeding stops... You'll arise 

Then one day you'll find 

That the one that broke your precious heart

Was a love... That wilts... And dies

Lucinda

Lucinda once a woman who'd been buried many years ago

Now tired of her resting she crawled from the grave she laid 

She didn't understand her neighbors, comfortable and cozy 

Who had visitors who knelt with them and listened as they prayed 

Lucinda once a woman was a woman men would marry

She'd had the bluest eyes that any man had ever seen

And often at her fancy she would lay right down beside them

And take those men to places where no man had ever been

Lucinda walked for miles towards her final destination 

And soon stood at the doorway of her well remembered home

He hadn't moved her key from underneath the garden rock 

And so she walked right in and found that he was sleeping all alone

Lucinda stood awhile and she just gazed upon the man

The very man who'd killed her with the poison that he gave

She saw a bottle by his side and thought that she might do the same

And send this vile creature to his well deserving grave

Lucinda though had other plans and slid beneath the silky sheets

And put an arm around him in the way she used to do

It wasn't long before the pig beside her gave a smile

Aware that down beneath the sheets anticipation grew

Lucinda sat upon him and she let him have his moment

Then he opened up his eyes and gave an agonizing cry 

The woman that he'd murdered was the corpse that sat upon him

The very one he'd poisoned and had watched once slowly die

Lucinda felt his heart as it beat heavy in his heaving chest

It stopped just like a broken clock and didn't make a sound

She felt a little tired and so returned back to the graveyard

Where at last she found her peace beneath the cemetery ground 

Your Secret (Safe With Me)

All these secrets you've been keeping

Conjured up while you were sleeping

Scandalizing, tempting dreams

You brought about those wicked schemes 

You thought no one would ever know

Those places where you like to go 

Well baby i've got news for you

I'd like to go there too 

In mumbled words you speak of love

As soft as any velvet glove

Your moaning tells of something deep

That rocks you in the hours of sleep

You move about seductively 

It sets alight a fire in me

So lets make all those dreams come true

I'd like to come with you   

Shipwrecked

Will you open up your heart to me?

I'm a sailor on a stormy sea

A shipwreck needing much repair

I see your light, is salvage there?

This tide that drags me to your port

May be my only safe resort

So shine your light, give me a sign

And rescue please this ship of mine

Remains

You took me on some crazy ride

You really drove me wild

Leaving me in tatters 

With my body left defiled 

I turned within the empty bed

In tangled sheets and stains

Where memories of the night before

Are all that now remains

The Fall

All the while she sadly falls

She spirals to the ground

Through broken mirrored twisting halls

She screams without a sound 

Images of what she was

Reflected in the shards

Her mind and thought collapsing 

Like a house once built of cards

This labyrinth of loneliness 

No rabbits here to chase

Just her and fragments of the past

Within this troubled place 

The Answer (To Every Prayer)

She is a secret unknown that was never revealed 

Her heart but a chamber, the doors to her soul ever sealed 

A piece of a puzzle thats never been made

The miles she has walked always randomly paved 

And she is the answer to every prayer that i prayed

She is an ocean that no one would dare ever sail 

A mountain so high, never climbed, but is there to prevail 

A labyrinth without a start or an end

Something so real but you can't comprehend 

And she is the answer to every prayer that i send

Ocean Blue

And when i fall upon 

The ocean blue

To drown in tears that fell from you

I'll taste your pain

I'll take the blame

Then swim towards you once again

Repaired

I'm just a baby looking at a messed up world that doesn't care

You may not understand me but I guess that you were never there

And as a boy I thought about the others who were roaming free 

Not locked away with strangers who were frightened much the same as me

Then in my teens I broke the chains and stumbled through a darker time

I found myself and what I learned was getting there you had to climb 

That young man struggled on and on until he reached the very top

And once he finally got there he just carried on and didn't stop

Eventually the old man saw himself and in the mirror stared 

And looked upon the baby who at last had been repaired 

The Darkest Corner

Silently i self destruct 

Inside my head i know I'm fucked

The broken pieces that i find

Confirm a fragile state of mind

And all the while nobody knows 

I go to places no one goes

The darkest corner in the room

Where i feel safe within the gloom

I want someone to find me there

To show me that they really care

But all the while i break and bend

Unsure if i can mend

Crazy

I'm on the edge

About to fall

I guess I'm crazy after all

And alcohol just numbs the pain

Aboard this train that's bound insane 

Next stop, not too far away

A month. A week. A reckless day

My journey once again off track

There is no turning back